59 cents In Rochester, Indiana.

Last night for unknown reasons I had a dream that I had to drive to a place called
Rochester, Indiana. I don't know anyone who lives there so I'm not sure why I dreamed
of it. I don't know if there is anything special about that place and have no idea why my dream would be about it.  I just felt like I had to drive there so I did.

I don't remember what all happened but I got to Rochester and various weird things happened that left me with a bad feeling. I kind of remember being in buildings and around the town and seeing and feeling a since of sadness or doom around me. For reasons I don't remember I had to leave the city for my own safety and sanity.

As I was driving home my car started acting up so I pulled into a place along the highway that had a restaurant. It wasn't far out of Rochester at all I think. I had no money or cell phone. I went in and asked to use the phone to call for help. The waitress complained and grumbled around about it. I wanted some water to drink but was told a glass of water would cost 59 cents. I had no money.

A disgruntled grouchy rude waitress brought me a glass of water that was 3/4 the way filled with no ice and said something like "here, this is all you get for free!"  Then she decided to not give me the water after all.

During all this a small brown dog was standing by me on its hind legs looking up at me talking to me telling me all I have to do is give 59 cents. It kept talking about 59 cents. I detected something evil about it and knew it was wanting to harm me in some way. Suddenly my brown dog that I've had for 6 years shows up and stays by me. My dog and I walked out of the restaurant without calling home for help due to the rude waitresses and dog preventing me. My dog and I got in the car and I sat at the wheel wondering what to do next.

At that time I heard the voice of my mom as if I were actually talking to her on the phone. I don't remember what she was saying but it had something to do with trying to get the car back on the highway and head home. I remember that I got back on the highway heading home. Everything around seemed too quiet with a lack of movement or sunshine even though it was day time.
The dream ended.

I do not have an interpretation for it right now.

Flesh eating virus, bad virus killing both humans and animals but is being ignored.

Below is the dream I found as an unpublished draft in this blog. I don't even remember this dream much at all. I don't know why it did not get published. I had forgot about his blog for several years not using it hardly at all. Well below is the dream. I'm not sure what the interpretation is other then perhaps the flesh eating deadly virus and society ignoring it stands for the filthy diabolical sins that society now thinks is normal and puts up with. Society now embraces many nasty sins as they are blind to the horrid affects those sins will bring not only upon themselves but the entire environment around them and beyond. We see some of the negative affects of those sins as it brings an entire country down but we ignore the real reasons for the down fall and try and place the blame on other things as we try to apply useless salve to the wounds or ignoring them all together.
A example of some embraced sins:

-the need for society to have to support not just a few here and there but tons and tons of single parents due to the fathers not taking care of their offspring and due to the parents sleeping around and getting pregnant and unable to support their own families because of it all.
(don't get me wrong I do think it is good that we help the babies/children, they need food, medical care and housing just as we all do. I'm just saying that there is way way way too much sexual sins resulting in our country having to spend out money to take care of it all.

-also we not only embrace disrespecting our bodies by sleeping around we also seem to think it is ok to cheat on our spouses or having a relationship with a married person. I am sickened at how not only non-Christians but even Christian marriages are divorcing over adultery in large amounts. Do we really think that is going to turn out well in the long run?

-Honor. Where is the honor these days? We don't honor our elders or anyone near as much as we should. To honor does not mean we have to agree with them and be their slave doing whatever they say. It means that even though we may or may not agree with them or even like them we still do not talk down to them and stuff like that. To honor someone means we treat them with respect and when possible we help them. Am example of dishonoring them might be when we make fun of them behind their backs slamming on them and bashing on their words, feelings and lifestyles. There is a proper way to disagree with someone without having to bash on them and act as if we are holier than though.

The dream below:


Dream typed out on Sept 24, 2008

I had a dream last night that one of those flesh eating diseases was over taking society.

But it was worse then the flesh eating disease we already know about.

It spread by contact so perhaps it was a virus maybe and not as much of a bacteria.

It started out affecting cats and then other animals and then later on humans. In the dream I tried telling others to be careful and not touch those affected without gloves, gowns and masks on.

People would not listen and they kept touching the affected ones and going about their lives. I thought the affected ones should be quarantined so that they could not spread it around to others like they unknowingly were. But no one else seemed to think so.

I kept seeing flesh that had been eaten away in large patches with the deadly flesh eating infection. It was eaten away so much in some cases that the organs could be seen pumping and functioning.

Still not to many people were worried about it and they kept going on in life as if it was not that big of a deal.

More got affected by it and walked about as if it was almost normal or something.

Darkness On My Back Blocking The Golden Rain Of God's Love

I am currently reading a book by a man named Jonathan Welton called "The School Of The Seers".
At the end of each chapter is what is called an activation. The best way I know how to explain is that an activation is a practice tool to do in order to learn how it all works.

I finished the chapter last night where the activation said to ponder on and think of how God loves us. I mean true love like He has for everyone. But it was real late at night and when I closed my eyes to think on God's love I fell asleep. So this morning I remembered and began pondering on it.

Immediately  without delay the mental picture (some call it a vision) was there. It was of me. Raining only on me was a golden colored rain with a sparkly glistening in it coming directly down on me, but I was bending over with an area of darkness that stayed directly on my back. I was bent down the entire time trying to look back and up at the golden rain. I kept moving around trying to make the dark thing come off my back and get out of the way, but it stayed on me strongly refusing to get off..

The interpretation:
The beautiful golden sparkly rain was God's love pouring down on me.
The dark thing on my back was anything from a demonic presence to emotional/mental issues preventing me from feeling the full impact of God's love.
Me bending over, moving around as I was bent over and me looking back and up at the rain was me trying to shake the darkness off of me, and me trying to look past the in-the-way annoying darkness on my back so I could see and feel a better view of God's love. I wanted to get that darkness off of me so the rain would wash over me absorbing into my skin and washing me clean. Yes I have Jesus in my heart and He is my Great Savior that has forgiven all my past, present and future sins. But I cant seem to feel the Love.

What might that dark presence on my back represent? I dont know for sure.
I know some of it is probably from my inability to fully feel love for unknown reasons. When someone acts like or says they like me and enjoys my presence I normally assume they are just saying that to be nice, but if they really knew me they would no longer like me because I'm so annoying and boring. Me feeling like I am annoying was backed up by an older type A personality woman who directly told me I am annoying and others don't like being around me a few years ago. Her words have stuck with me and gone deep into my soul even though I have forgiven her. I have forgiven but cant forget :(

Another reason why I cant feel God's love is probably from the legalism I was raised with. I have good parents who love the Lord. I have many good memories of my child hood so I'm not complaining. But as with all things on this earth amidst the good will be the bad too. I was raised with religious legalism that left me with feelings of shame and guilt like it does for most folks.

I could not be good enough. I could not sing or play music. I was not good at sports and memorizing tons of Bible verses. I just seemed useless in the church. And I just could not behave perfect enough. I was never good enough. Whenever I or other people were being talked about for their sins and mistakes the sinners and myself were talked about as terrible shameful people who are basically useless. Emotional and mental abuse is what it is.

Don't get me wrong my parents did not abuse me. My dad was not legalistic, but my mom was. She comes from a family where it isn't uncommon to hear conversations where others were considered to be shameful. Yes her family is a good family but they had their issues like every other family.

I'm glad to say that these days in my mom's elderly years she has been breaking free of religious legalism and shame based thought processes. She has come a long way and I am so glad for her. My dad is also a great person whom I am close with.

Now, how do I feel God's love fully?My head knowledge says "yes God loves me", but my emotions/feelings don't feel it.
Over the past several years I've prayed that any generational curses on me be broke off of me. I've grown spiritually and keep growing. I still sin yes but I've been doing much better as the conviction comes over me to not do such and such sin. I read my Bible and ask for forgiveness of my transgressions almost daily. But still I don't feel it? How to feel it?
I know it but cant fully feel His Love. There are times where I have felt it for a very short time, I want to feel that Love all the time.

Fiery Lion Staring Down The Demons.

As I mentioned before I've had all too many spiritual warfare battles especially in the past few years.
As long as I can remember I have sinced, smelled and sometimes saw demons around. The sheer evilness that they emit off of them has froze me into place countless of times, but I always had the spiritual strength to pray to and call out to Jesus.

I'm learning to not be so frozen solid when I since an intense evil around me. Jesus, He is my strength you see.

Anyways here is the vision that I got I think in March 2013.

I saw a giant huge sized lion perhaps the tallness of a semi truck or taller and almost as long as one too. It had fire all around its head/face in place of the mane. But I did not fear It. I know It was good and safe. I reached up to touch the lion by the face and did not get burned from the fire.

The Lion's eyes never steered from the scattered still standing, waiting and watching robed hooded figures a short ways off in the fog ahead.

Those figures represented demons and how they lay in waiting to trip us up and bring us down in any way they can.

The Lion represents Jesus.

The Lion continued to use His strong and full of knowledge eyes to star those demons down letting them know they will NOT be winning me to their side and will NOT be taking me out.

A few days or weeks later I saw the same vision (mental picture is a better word for it) of the same scene except for now there was 100s of people coming out from hiding in the surrounding woods and coming up to the Lion for protection. Upon the Lion was some people that represented the mighty warriors for Christ. The Lion was still staring those demons down keeping them off of the people.

My death - Sunflowers and Grandbabies

A few months back I had a very real dream that my front yard was packed full of those giant types of sun flowers that get probably 10 tall. They were blooming nicely looking beautiful. Not a single blade of grass could be saw.

At the end of my side walk (by the road) was a beautiful bright white glowing light that I knew to be Heaven. While standing at the end of the side walk about to go into that light I looked back and saw my husband hiding in the sunflowers but peeking out for unknown reasons. He was near the porch. I also saw my children as adults standing on the porch with 3 young children and an infant in the arms of my oldest child. I had 4 grandkids.

I wanted to go to Heaven while at the same time not wanting to leave my family. But my kids stayed on the porch with their children looking at me as if to tell me they will be ok. The oldest one especially looked at me and seemed to always be aware what was going on unlike my husband and other child. The oldest child also happens to be one who dreams and sees as well. My husband continued to watch as he poked his head out of the forrest of tall sunflowers.

But in the dream I kept feeling and saying "I dunno because Im not ready yet, what about the kids and my husband?"  I fretted a bit and kept saying Im not ready to leave them yet.

I woke up before I could go into Heaven through that light.

My kids are young. In order for me to have 4 grandkids about 20 years still needs to go by. Well, that gives me time to live for a good while yet :) In fact I think Ill live longer then that!

"I hate The Day You Were Born!"

In 2011 I had been in the middle of long lasting spiritual battle. But now I was winning. I was learning spiritually and growing and being put through a lot. For my families privacy I wont say what all was going on but it was enough to make a person cave in. I sometimes felt like caving in and giving up. But I'm too stubborn for that.

I was having a terrible nightmare that my husband was in the physical act of cheating on me and he didn't care even though I was standing there in the room screaming for him to stop. He laughed at me taunting me refusing to stop. But I refused to be a loser. I did not lose myself.

He looked directly at me and his face changed as he said with a different voice "I hate the day you were born!"

Now I know that was not really my husband. It was demonic torment using the image of my husband to try and bother me. His eyes showed evil as did the scow on the face. The voice was demonic  too.

As it told me it hated me I saw even more evil come from those eyes pouring out directly at me.

But I knew for it to say that that it meant via the power of Jesus I WAS winning and the demonic forces were losing! Perhaps it was tormenting the demonic world that I have Jesus and use His power often.

So, yes I woke up emotionally wore out from that very real dream but also with a since of  relief that I've been doing something right, and I thank Jesus for that! 2 years later and I still see the horrid demonic scow on the face and in those eyes.

But because of Jesus I win! Or should I say "We win" because after all I could not have won without the power and strength of Jesus. So yes We (Jesus and I) won and will continue to do so ;)

The Vision After Today's Oppression

Sunday Mother's Day 2013 May 12.
Today I spent an enjoyable time with my husband, children and some other family members along with my mother. We laughed and had a good time with great food.

Some of the other family members I was with are the ones Ive always been the closest to other then another relative that wasnt there. It was 3 adults all fun people. But there is such an oppression apon those 3 and there always has been. Im not the only one to have said that throughout the years.

They arent bad people. They are hard workers, pay their pills, dont go around breaking the laws and when they were children they all claimed to have accepted Jesus.

But as adults they have choosen of their own free will to live with anger and non stop sexual immoralnass with adultry being the worse. Well 2 of the 3 have lived in adultry more then 1 time of their own choice. All 3 have been molested as children 2 of them being molested by their own father who is NOT my relative.

I dont understand why sexual sins are worse then other sins (or so it seems I dont know) but it sure does seem to bring the attention of the evil supernatural spirtual world more so then many other sins. Dont get me wrong I know sex is not bad. God made it as a thing to be special and enjoyable with our spouse, but when God's laws are disregaurded it always seems to bring about troubles on our heads not from God but because it is like saying "hey, demons look at me, I dont think enough of God to give a hoot what He says about sex"

Why do you soppose God said we should only have sex with our spouse? Is it because He wants us to be stick in the muds? Nope. Think about it, when we sleep around it leads to troubles like STD's, unwanted pregnancies, abortions, break ups, low self esteem, embarrassment, shame and so on. Not to mention the ungodly soul ties it creates that secretly and unknownly reek havoc on us for years to come even AFTER we break up with the lover.

OK, so now we know sex outside of marriage is not a good thing. It just isnt. Perhaps that and the generational curse-sins of their ancesters is why those 3 family members seem to be surrounded by demonic oppression and ppl whom are senitive to the unseen world around us can feel that oppression as if it followes us trying to oppress us too and I think it does which is probably why Im feeling the extra heaviness tonight.

To get rid of that heaviness I prayed in English and in tongues, but still the heavy was there.

I closed my eyes and finally shut up.

The Vision:


This vision was in the same surrounding as the vision on this link (on this blog different post)
http://catchinghisdreams.blogspot.com/2013/04/seeing-into-heaven-vision-and-new.html

I was at the same beach where a dark tunnel could be seen way way in the distance over he large body of water. I was suddenly sucked to it and in to it. It was a ribbed tunnel that seem to go on forever in darkness but yet I was not afraid.

Finally I arrived at that same beach where I saw the tall wide bright white door to Heaven like in the other vision in the link above. Once again the same 2 super tall angels were on each side of the gate guarding it. This time I walked up to the one on the right and tapped his lower leg (His knees were above my head). He looked down at me and so did the one on the left unlike in the previous vision.

They didnt say anything to me. I tried scalling up the gate-wall to peek into Heaven determined I was gonna let my physical eyes see into it this time unlike last time where only my spiritual eyes could see into it. But once again my spirit separated from my body and climbed the wall to see into Heaven. It seemed like only seconds later my spirit was back in my body once gain.

The boat I left behind in the previous vision was still on the beach since I had "flew" back before. So I got in it and went through the black ribbed tunnel and back to the main land beach where I had come from.

Now I could see the same red fruits embedded into the tree trunk of the trees like before but in tons of trees if not every tree instead of just 1 tree. I ate one. Suddenly I saw my husband, children, those 3 family members and others sitting together on the forrest floor as if they were scared or worried. I knew the extra fruit was for them. I suddenly had my bright white spiritual sword in my hand and I arched it over them making a trasnparent bright white bubble over them and another bubble over that one so it expanded out enough so that other of my family farther away could be protected.

Im still feeling some oppression but not as bad.

MEANING:
I dont know for sure.

Perhaps it all means:
-The dark tunnel = the birth canal (generational oppression/curses from sexual sins, ects.)
-The extra fruit = spiritual fruit of protection and strength for them too.
-the bubble my God given spiritual athority to be in a prayer of protection for them and or praying the familycurses away from us all.

What do you think about it all?
(No I will not allow your post to be posted if it is nasty, rude, degrading, cussing ect although I will allow posts that dissagree and think differantly with me as long as it is done in love. We cant all 100% agree ya know but when we do dissagree on things it needs to be stated in a mature respectful manner for the well being of everyone)