My death - Sunflowers and Grandbabies

A few months back I had a very real dream that my front yard was packed full of those giant types of sun flowers that get probably 10 tall. They were blooming nicely looking beautiful. Not a single blade of grass could be saw.

At the end of my side walk (by the road) was a beautiful bright white glowing light that I knew to be Heaven. While standing at the end of the side walk about to go into that light I looked back and saw my husband hiding in the sunflowers but peeking out for unknown reasons. He was near the porch. I also saw my children as adults standing on the porch with 3 young children and an infant in the arms of my oldest child. I had 4 grandkids.

I wanted to go to Heaven while at the same time not wanting to leave my family. But my kids stayed on the porch with their children looking at me as if to tell me they will be ok. The oldest one especially looked at me and seemed to always be aware what was going on unlike my husband and other child. The oldest child also happens to be one who dreams and sees as well. My husband continued to watch as he poked his head out of the forrest of tall sunflowers.

But in the dream I kept feeling and saying "I dunno because Im not ready yet, what about the kids and my husband?"  I fretted a bit and kept saying Im not ready to leave them yet.

I woke up before I could go into Heaven through that light.

My kids are young. In order for me to have 4 grandkids about 20 years still needs to go by. Well, that gives me time to live for a good while yet :) In fact I think Ill live longer then that!

"I hate The Day You Were Born!"

In 2011 I had been in the middle of long lasting spiritual battle. But now I was winning. I was learning spiritually and growing and being put through a lot. For my families privacy I wont say what all was going on but it was enough to make a person cave in. I sometimes felt like caving in and giving up. But I'm too stubborn for that.

I was having a terrible nightmare that my husband was in the physical act of cheating on me and he didn't care even though I was standing there in the room screaming for him to stop. He laughed at me taunting me refusing to stop. But I refused to be a loser. I did not lose myself.

He looked directly at me and his face changed as he said with a different voice "I hate the day you were born!"

Now I know that was not really my husband. It was demonic torment using the image of my husband to try and bother me. His eyes showed evil as did the scow on the face. The voice was demonic  too.

As it told me it hated me I saw even more evil come from those eyes pouring out directly at me.

But I knew for it to say that that it meant via the power of Jesus I WAS winning and the demonic forces were losing! Perhaps it was tormenting the demonic world that I have Jesus and use His power often.

So, yes I woke up emotionally wore out from that very real dream but also with a since of  relief that I've been doing something right, and I thank Jesus for that! 2 years later and I still see the horrid demonic scow on the face and in those eyes.

But because of Jesus I win! Or should I say "We win" because after all I could not have won without the power and strength of Jesus. So yes We (Jesus and I) won and will continue to do so ;)