My Missions Statement and Announcement that I am not a psychic, wiccan, mystic, witch or pagan of any sort. Only Jesus IS my Lord!

The short version:
I have no power other then the power of my Lord and Savior Jesus Christ. I accept and believe that Jesus is God and came in the flesh born to a virgin who later on died for our sins and arose from death paying the ultimate price for us.
Most of these mental pictures/visions/dreams/mental videos are pertaining to me due to not wanting to type out all the ones I see for others due to time and their privacy although I do sometimes type out some about others.

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I need to and want to make it clear that I am not a psychic, wiccan, mystic, witch, druid or pagan nor do I wish to be. I do not abhor the people who practice those ungodly religions. I do not hate them. I do not wish them ill will, but I do not agree with who they serve and I want nothing to do with their beliefs and practices.

I believe that each human being is gifted with their own unique special gifting from God that is befitting for them. As humans we have the freedom to serve either Good (Jesus) or evil (satan and his demons).I believe that most people who partake in the above mentioned religions often do not purposely set out to serve satan and if they realized that they were they would not wish to continue doing so. But we have a choice. We can choose God or not and it would appear that most people with the special more uncommon prophetic gifting choose to serve satan (some knowingly and some unknowingly) because they were turned away by the churches.

Sadly in many instances over the centuries well meaning but seriously wrong, judgmental and unloving Christians have used the name of the Lord to abuse, torture and kill the people in the afore mentioned religions. Their sudden and strong hatred of those people was no doubt fueled by fear, paranoia and rumors. And it some cases they had legitimate reasons to fear some of those people of those religions due to some people having the ability to use their pophetic gifting for evil in terribly powerful ways.

Anyways because of the centuries of abuse from both sides warring at each other today we can still see the affects. When the non saved think that the all saved people are judgmental, holier then thou ridged stick in the mud legalist slamming on everyone then why would anyone think it is a good thing to serve the Lord?  Sadly those people lack the Truth and they allow their past hurts to blind them spiritually. If only they would choose to see through the blindness and to see that serving the Lord, the real Lord, our Creator and Savior is the real way and the only good way.

satan and his demons and the people who serve them come in many disguises and can even appear good and kind and so understanding. This makes it confusing for hurting people and leads them astray creating strong ties and loyalties.

No matter what our gifts are we can choose to use them for the Lord or not. That means signing, music, teaching and many more. Who do you choose to use it for?

Throughout my life I have been drawn to evil practices and interested in them. I know I have the ability to use "magic" (for a lack of a better word sorry) to harm others and knowingly did so 2 times in my youth which I am ashamed of and have prayed many times for forgiveness and for the people I hurt to be blessed and saved and freed from any curse I placed on them in any way. I knew it was wrong and instantly asked God for help and forgiveness never doing it again. I just knew it was not of God and what is not of God is not good. But some how I knew what to do to get what I wanted. I was being drawn to the dark side as are all people with prophetic gifting. But we can be strong minded and choose to not work for the dark side.

Now in my older and wiser years I am seeing my faithfulness to not give up on God and to keep holding onto Him blessing me. No I am not perfect. I still mess up. I have more learning and growing to do. I was not and have not been perfect, but I always believed and never let go. Now God is showing me how to use my gifting better.

 I constantly fear that I might be doing something sinful and against God with my prophetic gifting. I don't ever want to fall into doing witch craft. My legalistic religious upbringing still whispers shame, guilt and distrust into my ears making me slow to accept the full gospel and my own gifting and that of other prophetic Christians.

But despite my many imperfections God keeps on keeping on with me. Just as He does for you and as He did for King David who seemed to always mess things up in a giant way.

So yes I dream, have visions, see mental pictures, feel things, etc. but I do not do it for evil or money. I often pray prayers like this "Lord don't let me say or do something that is not of you when it comes to the mental pictures, dreams and so on. Don't let me say it, do it or write it if I am mistaken and it is not correct. Don't let me unknowingly fall into witchcraft"

Now, after so long, I am finally beginning to trust that the Lord is hearing and honoring that prayer.

I have chosen to not use my real name in this blog due to the still extreme false teachings with in western churches. There is still so much judgment towards Christians whose gifting is on the "different" scale. We seemed to have fallen into a trap thinking that the only acceptable gifts are singing, teaching and preaching and that anyone without those gifts are basically peons. There is no child of God who is a peon. All children of God have special gifting of some sort but most don't know it and it gets suppressed and not used.

But now, today, western Christians are beginning to see the Truth.

Jesus who is God and the son of God came in the flesh to become human of a miracle virgin birth to teach humans and die for our sins so that if we choose Him of our own free will we don't have to go to hell. And then 3 days after He died for us He rose from the dead.
I believe in the Holy Trinity.
Jesus is my savior,  my Lord, my Redeemer, my Protecter and Strengh, my Forgiver and the true and real lover of my soul.

Mental picture over load. One was close to being too powerful, it stirred my emotions.

At church on June 30, 2013 Sunday I had arrived too early so I sat outside the church reading and praying for a little bit. I prayed that I would see more good stuff and instead of mostly only the bad stuff like I usually do.

Instantly I saw a golden white line outlining the top of a bowling alley and bar. That didn't make any since to me, why would a place where the towns people with severally  bad moral choices hang out be lined in the gold and bright white that I so often see with Christians and those especially anointed?

The thought came to me that Jesus died for them too! There are some Christians in there as well. Why shouldn't God bless a place and those people as well? I confessed my judgmentalism.

In church a regular attender brought a friend to church with him. She walked in and the typical pleasantries were exchanged like "hi my name is ____ how are you?"

Then I saw all kind of multicolored beautiful flowers growing out of her back and happily swaying. I thought that was befitting of her because already I could tell she was a kind hearted soul. A bit later I saw like a see through image of Jesus standing directing in front of her about 2 feet away maybe. I saw Jesus reach through her chest and pick one of the white flowers from her back and He then pulled the flower through her chest and out her body and held it in His hands as He smelled its lovely fragrance and smiled with pleasure.

It was a powerful mental picture to me because it was Jesus Himself. The visual was so emotionally sensitive that I started crying as I told her about it later. To see Jesus enjoying a human being so much. It still makes me teary eyed. It came over me off and on and there for a bit I thought maybe I should silently walk out of church and walk home so I could cry like a baby because I felt kind of overwhelmed and needed to cry but not in a sad or bad way.

I'm not sure why that visual came so strong for that young lady but it did. I don't know what her gifts or life story is. She walks with those crutches things where it braces her arms and I notice her one leg (perhaps) both had some kind of brace on it.  I don't know what her aliment is but it doesn't matter anyways. Whatever and whoever she is she has an extra special blessing of some sort about her. I know she is still a human and sins and like us all has probably did her share of mistakes but none of us can ever be perfect and that doesn't prevent us from receiving blessings. And like God loved King David so much even though he kept messing up God has apparently chosen to have some extra love for that young lady too. The happy pleased look on Jesus face was so intense.

I was having a ton of visuals. A lot. So many I could not write the all down or tell them. I was starting to feel like it was getting to be a bit too much.

I only told 2 of them, 1 to the young lady and the other to a young man. I saw a golden white vine coiling around the young man's right leg then once it got to his torso it turned green and leafy and wrapped around once. I knew it was meant as a "it's gonna be ok" type of thing and told him so. Later on he told me that his right leg has suddenly been hurting him badly this week for un known reasons and one day it was so bad he could hardly walk.

Another visual I remember was the pastor had 3 long golden white "spears" going through him at a slant. The spears lifted him up to the ceiling and held him there like a hammock kind of. To me that means a special comfort for the Lord I think?

I saw music notes as if they were flowers as they were on stems coming off the guitar and swaying during the songs. Music notes also danced about around the 2 guitars and on the wall in front of us as well as golden white linings.

There was a lot more. I don't remember them all. Too much to type out. But the young man confirming what I saw as helped encourage me because I had been praying for some kind of confirmation and to know that I'm not doing anything sinful and wrong with my visuals. I don't want to go against God.

The young lady's visual still affects me but not in a bad way. I shall be thinking of and pondering on that and the visual of the young man and his words this week.

I pray for total healing of the young man. I have also prayed blessings (more then she already has) on that young lady, and protection for her and even healing.

Randy Alcock Who Are You?

Last night I had a long dream. Id wake up several times throughout the night and the dream would continue on once I fell back to sleep.

I don't remember much of the dream other then I kept hearing the name Randy Alcock all throughout the dream and at one point someone (I don't know who) handed me a black marker so I could write out the name Randy Alcock. I was told in the dream to not forget that name but I don't know why.

In the dream at 1st I thought it was referring to my junior high gym teacher because his name was Mr Alcock but upon futher thoughts I don't think his 1st name was Randy. In fact Im pretty sure it was not.

Well whoever Randy Alcock is I'm praying for him for whatever reason.

Alone and Running Towards Darkness

Often I get mental pictures. That's just my thing and the way God made me. Only this year have I learned that I can sit back and relax with eyes closed and pray asking God what He has for me.
Tonight this is what He had for me:

I was in a long but not wide factory that had work tables with over head lights above each work table/bench. The over head lamp like things above each work bench was painted blue.I don't know what the factory made.

I was alone. The big room had no other humans in it.

Suddenly one of those things that  look like some kind of large air ducts or tubes or whatever appeared on the wall right where the ceiling is like we see with those air things in some businesses and place of work. It was building itself and adding onto its self very quickly and I got the urge to follow it. So I began running after it as it continued to grow alone where the ceiling and wall meet.

It lead to the other end of the factory where there was a large opening in the wall that revealed nothing but pitch blackness. I came to a halt not wanting to run into and follow that air thingy into that darkness that I knew did not feel right.

So what does all that mean? I don't know for sure.

It might be representative  of how I am so often alone in spiritual matters. Why was I running and following the air thingy? Does it possibly mean I easily fall for and run along with that which is in error? Or could it mean that certain influences and situations in life could have easily lead me into giving up and falling into deep sin which was the darkness and me almost running into it.

Spiritually Blinded Husband and When I See Gold I know It Is Of God

So often with the mental pictures I will see Christians with a gold thread or a gold lining and other forms of gold near them, on them or outlining their body or sometimes coming off of them and sometimes attached to some thing or some one else.

I think it usually means there is some kind of special anointing there or like a special work of God going on at the time. I also think it can be seen in anyone who has chosen Jesus and not just specially anointing ones.

The other day I saw a gold lining out lining my husband's body but coming off the surface of his entire body was dark rays of demonic influence and forces.

No my husband is not some kind of raving lunatic out there drugging and drinking it up. He is a faithful husband who works hard to provide for us. But his blood line from his father is not good. Im sure many of his dad's family are not evil but it only takes a few to mess things up. His dad was abusive and mean and voiced how he hated Jesus and forbid talk of Him. Weird things occurred and much violence and abuse took place which placed in my husband a deep psychological dysfunction that is quit evident to others, well actually many assume he is just a jerk while others see through that and see that something is not right but they don't know why.

I believe the dark rays represent the cursed blood line, unconfessed and unrepentant sins and the deep psychological damage done. It is almost as if the gold lining is protecting him from further attacks from demonic forces but it cant heal him of the damage of it all until he chooses to say "yes I want healed", but unless he sees that he needs healed or unless he chooses to reach out for help I fear he is stuck in limbo just hanging out spiritually, and that is harmful to me and the kids.

Sexual Filth and Prophetic Dreaming Or A Nightmare Brought About By My Worries For Some Of My Relatives.

In a previous post I had explained a vision I had about some of my relatives who are in serious spiritual bondage and don't even realize it. In the vision I saw that bright white sword making an arch of protection over them.

Over this past weekend I had a dream about 1 of those families and how filthy immoral sex was their main issues as if it were some kind of generational curse and probably is. I dreamed that the curse and main issue lay with the mother and teenaged girls in that family during this time but I know it goes back even farther. The father isn't the spiritual leader and does not live in the same house. In fact there is no spiritual anything good it would appear from looking in from the outside.

Any ways in the nightmare an unseen filthy sexual force was harassing the mother and teenaged daughters. One of them or perhaps all were in grave danger due to the sexual immorality and curse,but I don't know if that means spiritually or physically. I don't know which one was in the main danger.

I don't know what that all means for sure. It cold mean an STD or an unwanted pregnancy. Or it could mean further annulation of what little bit of spiritual integrity they may have which means their very souls are in danger.

Don't get me wrong I don't think sex is bad or filthy. It is a good thing God invented for us but only if done with in the right parameters which is with in marriage and ONLY with our spouse, other wise when done outside of God's commandments it leads to terrible things like STDs, molestations, rapes, peeping toms, adultery, prostitution and other forms of sexual perversion.

The devil took what God made to be good (sex) and made it into vile things like porn, sex crimes, adultery and so on. The devil and his demons have been good at doing that, they take what God made for good and distort it making it into something evil.

Im not the parent of the teens in the family above. I have no legal grounds to tell them the danger I see for their teen girls. I have made remarks off and on and said some things attempting but to no avail. All I can do is pray for them. Whatever the curse is on them goes back as far as the great-great-grandpa from what I know of and perhaps father back. The sexual filth of adultery literally goes from generation to generation creating screwed up offspring emotionally, mentally, spiritually and morally. They aren't bad people per say, they have been good to me and have helped me. I have had many good times and laughs with them. They would not steal from others or harm others. They are not monsters. They are humans beings with feelings and emotions created by God but choosing to keep living in diabolical sins without the spiritual and mental wherewithal to do anything about it.

What to do?

Swallowed By The Ground

I know I type dreams out that are not in chronological order but I type them out as I remember them. I wish I had been doing this starting many years ago.

This dream took place in about 2009 I think perhaps later. Very possibly 2010.

Swallowed By The Ground
I was in my parent's yard when a large slit opened in the ground making an oblong hole. It was as if the ground under the opening had become hollow. I fell down into the hole and was desperately trying to climb out with no success. It was daylight but the sun was not blazing onto me thanks to the clouds in the pretty blue sky, and no animals where around which is unusual for there. No birds could be heard. All was still. No humans around either, not even the sound of insects such as crickets could be heard. Complete quietness and stillness as I was struggling to survive and rescue myself.


In the dream I strongly felt the emotions of fear and panic. I was screaming over and over for help but no one came. We lived next door to my parents, finally my husband drove up the drive way after getting off work. I screamed and screamed for him to come to my rescue but he never heard or came.

My kids and parents were no where in site. I screamed so loud over and over. I was losing strength quickly as I struggled to try and get out. I was 100% under the ground and could look up and see the opening that revealed the pretty but non-moving sky/clouds. I knew my husband was out there somewhere but he didn't seem to hear me. I was on my own. The more I fought to climb out the more I seemed to sink deeper and deeper as if an invisible force was pulling me down deeper into the earth.

Dream over.

My husband woke me up because I was thrashing about making whimpering noises in my sleep. It was very disturbing and felt so real.

To me some of the interpretation is the fact that so often in life I am alone having to do everything myself and am the only one I can depend on while everyone else is going abouts their own way.